鸟自己

已经是半夜时分
我的眼睛还是睁开着
虽然是觉得身体好累

实在是没办法
明天的考试完全没有把握
什么pointer,random variable
还搞不清楚他们使用方法与用途
还在努力研究当中
（不要把我当成很厉害酱 我也是有付出代价的）

近来办事都有种力不从心的感觉
不知是否是自卑感在作祟
不过我是觉得
其实是我自己远远技不如人
不管我多努力的
想将自己安置在前列
不是我要好练
做人也需要自我要求的吧

人脉网络也不见得扩张
反而越见收窄
虽然目前CS里面有一个大族群
不过要我混在里面
对不起 我觉得很幸苦
除非真的到了需要我
见人说人话
见鬼说鬼话的时候才打算吧

我很害怕
我无法遵守承诺
我曾经对自己许诺
"在哪里跌倒 就在哪里爬起来"
这就是我存在的意义
要撑住啊～

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This post was coming out under the bombardment of music
my mind was stretching too much I guess
although I felt kinda tired but my brain still awake
and tomorrow will be my Programming Practical test again
I still in blank in mind
what is the usage of pointer, random variables
even i had spent a lot of time to do research on it
i still don't have any idea
but what to do?
this is what so called LAST MINUTE JOB!!!

Recently everything is not going fine
is it the feeling of inferiority?
or it's really proven that I'm so dumb
I'm trying hard to keep maintain myself in the front row
That's only minimum requirement for myself
I swear I also can't fulfill it~FFFFFTTTTTTTTTTWWWWWWWWWWW

Really feel pissed off to some of the gang in my stream also
I prefer to keep myself away instead of forcing myself to face it
U make me feel really BEH Song U KNOW??!!!!!

I still remember i had promised myself
before i entering UTAR
I told myself
"I should rise up at the place where i had fallen"
now i wonder whether
i still afford to keep my promise??
i don't wish
the FACE OF DISAPPOINTING
appear in front of me again!!!!

Could I??




The menu card with theme of "Halloween PARTY" by our group



"no confident" tend to be my weakness gua??
i look over confident??

P/S:2 more days will going to visit orphanage at Teluk Intan(期待）
P/S:for those who want to leave your friend away, go ahead